Love :)

Carla (Rica) Peralejo and Joe Bonifacio's Same Day Edit from Jason Magbanua on Vimeo.

 Kinikilig ako while I was watching this vid. Tapos sakto nagpop si Cindy and sent me this image

:)

Tapos naisip ko na lang bigla, buti na lang hindi nagkatuluyan si Rica at Bernard. Haha! Showbiz. But really, buti na lang.

She's a Christian woman now and I really admire her turnaround from how she was before. God blessed her with a man worthy of her love. *starry-eyed* It's not just how handsome or macho the guy is, it's how he loves the Lord that makes a whole lot of difference. *kilig* It's always uber inspiring to see couples having God as the center of their relationships, they're always blessed with so much love.

"I promise to constantly pursue you and make you feel loved and wanted because you're worth it"
"...And by God's grace this is going to be one amazing life..."

That kiss they shared was their first. :) Galing!

Love in God's perfect time...

Can I totally forgive you and start trusting you?

"Gusto mo naman ng assurance na mahal ka, nirerespeto ka, at hindi ka niloloko." -Kris Aquino

Handbook 2010

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours..
10. Take a 10-30 minute walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything..
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Melancholy

The past entries I've posted are melancholic and this one's no better. I've been trying to keep myself from feeling depressed so I fill my after work hours with fun activities. I'm tired of being too much of an emo, I try to think of positive thoughts, but the thing is I'm sad and I'm having a hard time trying to think of good things. I'm not sure if my isotretinoin medicine is making it worse but I still have 2-3 months to go so I need to hold on to my sanity. Retail therapy isn't working much for me and at the same time, I'm controlling my unnecessary expenses so I can save for the future. So the point is I'm very unhappy right now. I'm worried, insecured, confused, doubting, and hurt.

Hurting's the worst. Specially now that I know why he's not the same towards me. I felt bad when I saw the pictures but then they answered my questions. That doesn't make it less painful though and what's harder is that I'm stopping myself from telling him about it now. After all, it's about timing. I don't want to wallow in my grief and misery this time. I just want it to end. I want to feel numb and indifferent when the world explodes. Sometimes I want to not care anymore and just disappear from this part of my life and be somewhere else and wish that I did not go this path. I have low tolerance for emotional pain. But then maybe this painful path will lead me to a better place and I hope I get there soon and fast.

My birthday is in a week, and I pray to God that He grants me a better year. I'm praying that this year will be my year. That this year I will start on my path to success -- in my own being, in my career, with my family, financially, spiritually, and of course in my love life (Lord, 2 yrs. and I'll reach my marrying age).

Lord, sakeeettt! Ito na naman ang sakit, please let this be the last Lord. Give me the strength and courage to forgive, let go, and move on. And grant me the grace to be healed and happy. And most specially, to be loved.

Such drama for a post but

I'm not happy.

I wonder if it's time to stop and let go of this.
And then start anew and hold on to something more secured when I'm ready.

I've made mistakes but no more.
I've had enough.
No more.

This 2010

I need to get out of my comfort zone.
Set my goals and achieve them.
Know my priorities,
Manage my time.
Focus and Balance.

It's time to start...

Welcome 2010! May this year be a blessed and fruitful one!

Life is what happens while you are making other plans.

-John Lennon

Lord,

Sana magandang balita lahat. Sana mabuti pa rin ang lagay ko.
Hindi po kasi ako mapakali.

Pacing

I sometimes feel like I'm chasing waterfalls.

Sensitivity

I was watching Lovers in Paris the other day when I saw the scene where Vivian, Martin & Karen were in Carlo's new place. Carlo slipped about his & Vivian's wedding plans. The news surprised (& angered) Martin & Karen and made Vivian awkward, while Carlo obviously didn't regret what he said. Karen reacted negatively and said, "All we ask is a little sensitivity..."

I just found it weird. I mean, Karen is Carlo's ex-wife alright, while Martin is in love with Vivian and Carlo's nephew (well brother) and it was an awkward and painful situation for both of them. But she was in no position to react like she's the victim, after all, they're divorced and he did not invite her to his place. They should be sensitive to the couple and not the other way around. Wala lang love ko si KC eh haha!

Anyway, na-chakahan lang ako sa scene. Ma-apektuhan daw ba =P